rock the bells 09

its official like a referee's whistle. ahahah
w/ the LA loves <3

so far....

+ got out early today
+ out to lunnchhy w/ bri & heather
+ grades are going UP
- 162 tardies to 1st period. AHA its kinda funny tho.
- mixed signals are hella annoying *and just when i thought it was getting somewhere...
+ birthday coming up
+/- D.C. trip
+ rock the bells!!
+ adri's party is this weekend and i havent seen those kiddos in forever and a day!
+ tutoring during summer school ;)
+ dyeing my hairrr soon.
+ nails did :)
+ LA soon?

mmm... thats all.
as you've noticed...im ignoring blogspot for a tad bit.
im thinking about moving to tumblr.
we'll see.
keep it easy breezys. haha

my weekend

consisted of...
-fambase from LA invading my house :)
-vow renewal
-hella fam parties
-late nights with the cousinsss
-driving around in oakland at 12:45 in the morning
-singing britney spears to cute whiteboys in another car
-adopting another cuzn cuz we love him that much! AHA
-creepy ass stalkers
-designated drivers
-lighting shots on fire
-v&dc in water bottles. hellla sneaky haha
-saturday night kick it (that turned into a crowded ass sleepover?) with the favess
-having to share a fckn twin bed with adrian and his tall ass!
-"unusual you" on repeat for hoursss while we got lost in the car
-drunk quotes
-reunited with more than a couple people- although sometimes its better to keep the past in the past :/

quote of the moment...
"i'll suck yo dick it for a cheeseburger!!! haha just kidding. i would never do that. but maybe for a chicken sandwich?"
LMAO and this came out of nowhere.
gooood times.

all in all...
a bomb ass weekend.
the best in awhile.
but im exhausted.
havent really slept in 24 hours.
and back to school tmrw. nooo.
i miss everyone already!

how was urs? :)

rafael casal is the shit part 2.

rafael casal's piece about a.d.d...
i have a little cousin whos like the smartest kid you'll ever meet and this totally describes him.

but anyways, once again... rafael casal is on point.
on and hes frickennn HOT.

gahhdaaamnnn! ahah

heres the lyrics and the video but its better to watch the video cuz yeah :)
enjoy!



im watching 6 kids standing around a play structure that just abruptly stopped shooting out the water they were playing with.
my nephew shaun, years and feet behind his insta-friends at cedar rose park,
stands among the cluster of kids trying to summon the water back.
me and the other parents watch and chuckle as the kids try different variations of "open sesame" at a non-responsive spout.
im afraid someday they gonna tell him he has attention defficate-
a disorder that 1 in 4 men are affected with.
the band aid on a mystery they wish to de-complicate then medicate to accomodate the commoness of why he cant concentrate.
they'll say in class he seems lost,
i'll say his mind has free sight.
but nowadays we raise young ones to be much more machine like.
because big industry needs employees who are machines right?
who dont make history, just live on some efficency hype.
marchings the mission; thats the mission, keep the seams tight.
and teach kids the repetition so they grow up industry types.
and heres my nephew...
homework in one hand,
and a serious addiction to the nineties tyko equivilent of legos in the other.
in this corner, an unbelieveibly white, blank, unanswered page of questions he can not be less engaged in.
and in the other corner,
a 4-foot long replica of the star wars millenium valkan created and constructed using pieces from four different leggo sets,
thats color coded, working loaded and ready.
clearly... it aint trouble paying attention.
he'd just rather be playing invention.
so as i investigate your motives for why you try to medicate him, i beg to question.
lets do the equation...
its $23.99 for a month of pills.
which is 10 milligrams.
thats 1000 milligrams in one gram.
thats 1000 divided by 10 milligrams.
thats 100 bottes times the price of one bottle thats $23.99.
thats roughly $2400 per every gram of ridallin in the country.
times that... see 1 kilo is 1000 grams.
so $2400 times 1000 grams is $2,400,000 per kilo of ridallin.
times the 17,618 that are brought in and sold in the pharmecuitical buisness in 2001.
that means they got a $42,283,200,000 industry.
its brilliant.
tell kids they're inferior, then have them buy back their efficiency.
at first i thought attention defficate must be on some new epidemic shit,
till i found out the u.s. consumes globally 90% of it.
diagnose you inferior so the prime-attized medics get your money in a country where you go broke buying your benefits.
and i dont want to see shaun ever look up from his book and see everyones on page 15 and wonder why hes still on page 2,
cuz hes been off somewhere dreaming about fighting dinosaurs, making lego robots, and drawing spiderman till his fingers hurt, and has to snap out of his daydream just to satisfy you.
dont ever tell shaun hes wrong.
if minds didnt wander we wouldn't have ghandi for your spiritual revolution.
no black power, fists shaking, and a crumbling divide.
no vietnam soldiers on their way home.
shit... hip hop came from kids who couldnt seem to pay attention.
there'd be no jazz, no tap,
shit...we'd still think the world was flat if it was not for straying attentions.
and as i watch my 3 year old nephews mind begin to wander, while the rest of the kids continue to bark secret code words at a dried up tap in hopes to bring it back to life,
shaun- much shorter and younger than the rest,
scans the payground, walks across the sand, and presses a shiny silver-dollar sized button on the red post, which restarts the spout and shoots water into the palms of eager youngsters.
he walks back to the group.
right then he could have been resolve, marks, monet, laruda, the one to walk outside the box and do something powerful.
they are afraid of you, shaun.
because you beg to question.
because boys like you grow into men worth a mention.
build the world with your blocks.
draw in any direction.
and if they EVER tell you that you cant focus,
good.
pay them no attention.

purell is my new bestfriend.

sorry blogspot...
im kinda over you if i dont have a camera...
which is why i haven't posted in forever and a day.
im exhausted.
physically, mentally, in every way possible.
i need to end the late ass nights and stop trying to make it thru the day on 4 hours of sleep.
and this whole flu thing is starting to scare me, even tho i know its not thaaat serious.
im stocking up on purell tomorrow.
hah but on a more positive note...
-summer is just a month away
-testing is over
-late starts
- aLOT of birthdays coming up. and mine!
-starting drivers ed.
annnndd...
-more LA trips

hes soooo hot, and is this not the most legit picture?
ahahah

with that im off to bed :)
peace.

25.

haha so this has been going around and ive been tagged like 10 times on facebook but now im finally getting around to actually doing it :)

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.


1. I judge people I don't know yet based on what they're wearing. I know its bad. Actually its horrible. I try to stop but I've been doing for as long as I can remember. Its probly one of my worst habits.

2. I hate san leandro. Actually I don't like most of the bay area, other than SF and berkley. I'm waaaayy happier in southern california and I'm moving there as soon as I can.

3. I love listening to peoples stories and problems. Ahah for some reason its hella interesting.

4. I grew up way too fast and I'm very mature for my age. People have always been telling me this but I didn't actually realize it for myself till a little while ago. Outside of my school friends, I hang out with people who are a lot older.

5. I hate it when people wear shorts and uggs. WTF. If its cold enough to wear boots why is ur dumbass in shorts? Soo not cute.

6. I have blonde moments aLOT. Haha everyone is used to it by now so they automatically explain things twice to me. Lol

7. I always have to have my nails painted. I honestly could not tell you the last time I've left the house without nail polish on.

8. Im usually the quiet one, mostly if im around people i dont know very well yet.

9. I want to either go into personal styling, fashion merchandising, photograpghy graphic design, or advertising.

10. I like being productive, but I'm really lazy. I hate sitting at home not doing anything though.

11. Coco Chanel and Bob Marley are my idols. Haha soo random, I know.

12. I havee a small tiny little problem with shopping too much. if I'm bored, sad, mad...anything... I shop. I never have money! Ahaha

13. I have bracelets on all the time. Like seriously they never come off. they're all from someone important. :)

14. I loooove shaun white!! Haha he's the hottest snowboarder eveerr ever ever.

15. I cannott live without my ipod. Its always with me.

16. I love more unknown brands like dimepiece, hellz bellz, joyrich, free people and johnny cupcakes because you won't see as many people around wearing them.

17. SF, berkley, del mar, LA, and santa barbra are my favorite places ever.

18. I can't ever stick with anything. I've done ballet, tap, jazz, gymnastics, volleyball, guitar, art lessons, swim team, and a bnunch of other things but I can never choose one and keep it up.

19. I like to read, just none of that old shit we have to read in school. Hahah suprising right?

20. Nothing hotter than a guy with skinny jeans and gauges.

21. I'm very organized. I always have to-do lists in my phone, write things in a calendar, and have to have my whole room organized. If its messy it will bother me untill I fix it, even if I'm not at home.

22. I've known a lot of my closest friends since preschool.

23. im super-addicted to my blackeberry. another thing i alwayss have on me.

24. I used to be really good at school, but now im failing a lot of my classes.

25. I dont feel like tagging people. Soo feel free to do it yourself! ahah.



OH....
im gonna be in LA again on this weekend but will someone pleaseeeeee go and tell me how much good shit they had.
and buy me stuff if you're feeling nice.... :)

peacee.

spring break

Spring break was the shit. I'm at LAX right now and I sooo don't wanna leave! Its back to boring ass school tmrw -_-
But starting on wed.let's see...
Kristy, ellie and jack picked me up from the airport and we went out to lunch then back to their house and then we went tanning for like 3 hours. Later that night ellie had work and my auntie and uncle went out, so kristy and I went shopping and cooked. Pei pei came over and we ate with her and jack.
Hmm.
The next day we woke up heeelllla late, tanned until ellie had work, then kristy and I went shopping with pei pei to get all the last minute stuff we needed for the river. After that we went home to get ready then met up with ellie at red robin to eat. Ahahaaha and kristy got the manager to pay for everything since they had hellllaa bad service. After that we went to steven, aaron, and mikes house in solana beach. Its soo funny cuz solana beach is considered "ghetto". AHAHAH when we were driving to their house I was expecting it to be all scary with bars on the windows and shit, but its actually soooo nice. Anyyyways I met steven and aaron and miken, and they were all very chill :). We just did hookah at their house for a few hours and it was really fun.
By the time we got back it was like 2 am so we crashed.
Next day we left around 12 to head out to the river!
The car ride was soo long but it was me, ellie, kristy, and pei pei in our own car so it wasn't bad at all. Ellie and I got winked at by some hot guys at in-n-out. LOL. We got stuck in abt 2 hrs of traffic cuz there was a semi-truck that had flipped over :( it was really sad cuz there's nooo way the driver had survived that. We finally got to lake havasu and basically just set up tents and went to sleep.
The next day it was ugly and cloudy, so we just went around on the jetskis all day. Then that night ellie, austin, aaron and I had a sleepover. Lol we stayed up until 5 in the morning around the fire. We didn't get back to our own tent till like 6 and then we woke up at 8 the mext morning to go on the boat trip to the sandbar. I have nooo idea how we didn't crash all day but we were fine.
Yesterday we drove home, and ellie and I went shopping and out to dinner since it was my last night. And now I'm at the airport :(
I reallyyy dnt wanna go back to school tmrw. Ughh. As soon as I get home I havta do a ton of homework and laundry and just get things ready for tmrw. Then when heather gets out of school were gonna go eat I think. Ahaha I'm hella bored and hungry right now but I dnt wanna get up and not be able to find my gate, cuz I'm sure it will happen. OH and my dumbass ipod AND camera broke this week!! So I only have pictures of about the first 3 days or so, but I'll put them up when I get home.
Sorry for this being so freaking long. Lol I'm bored out of my mind sitting here. Planes abouta leave tho.

Peacee.
Oh and haveee fun in 6th period nicole! :) lol

L.A. :)

Omg. I'm so so soo bored. At the airport super early. It was hella weird cuz I've flown by myself hella times before, but I've either been young enough to have a flight attendent take me everywhere, or at least been with my sister or a friend. Hahaha so OF COURSE I was worried about everything last night cuz i can find a way to stress about anything. Lol. But I'm sitting at the gate right now and everything was cooool. Hah. The airport is like deserted as fck tho. And I have all my luggage with me, so I cnt really just walk around. Pretty much just stuck sitting here for another 2 hours or so. Fun right? Oh and my dumbass blonde self almost got onto a flight to seattle! Hahahah hella embarrasing. So yeah. Asideee from that nothing too interesting. I wnt have cell service once we get to the river so ima be like cut off for a week :(
Omg. Monte vistas whole damn girls lax team is on my flight. How fckn annoying.
Ahhhh and there's like 3 babies. This would happen. Anywayss ima go find something to do to occupy myself for two hrs -_-

my yesterdays are gone...

and tommorws never promised to no one.

sooo...i saw the ex boyfrann last weekend.
to say the least... it was interesting?
and awkward.
not bad, but just weird and waaay different.
i mean, obviously.
as much as i might have complained or whatever, he was a good kid.
actually no.
he wasnt a good kid, but he was a good boyfriend.
as best as he could be in the situation.
i just cant deal with the "bad boy" shit.
i put up with it for as long as i could.
i tried. i wanted it to work.
but lets just say, he definitely was NOT someone who i would be ok with meeting my parents.
and eventually he was going to have to.
but really i would like have panic attacks thinking about it.
nooo lie.
aha. and then there was the whole sneaking around thing,
that got tiring reallll fast.
and he would always expect me to be coming over. like i had no life aside from him.
and he never went to school so they would just do stupid shit all day.

BUT ...

regardless of all that, i do miss him.
and hope hes doing ok.
which i dont think he is =/
its not my responsibility to keep him in check anymore though, and as much as i wanna just fckn shake him and make him realize everything he could be doing but isnt,
i cant.
and i wont.
i hope he pulls his shit together soon tho.

aside from that....
spring break has been pretty chill and boring so far.
im gonna try to hang out with a few people before i go, since i'll be in so.cal for the rest of the week.
also i feel bad cuz im missing 2 peoples birthdays while im gone -_-
hahhh ive been hella lazy today tho, so ima actually get myself up and ready.
hopefully either going to SF or berkley today, but if not prbly will just end up going running at the lake.
haha oh...
i hella love musiq soulchild now!
i had to get the whole luvanmusiq album yesterday. :)
today and sobeautiful are my favorite songs.

hopeee everyones break is good.
peace.

your blondeee is showing

uhm. so yeah.
im not sure what im doing wrong...
i've been doing better in school.
not missing classes.
turning in everything.
going to tutoring.
not being late.
retaking tests.


idk what the fuck else you want me to do.
im trying... i really am.
when i actually start making an effort....thats when you decide to bitch at me?
it makes no type of sense.
whatevvs.
im really just done with it all.
bitch all you want.
ground me.
take away my phone.
cancel my spring break trip.
youre the one whos gonna end up looking dumb when you think back and realize you had
absoulutely no reason for doing any of it.
and you dont want me to get a job?
ok..... have fun paying for all my shit for another year?
im off to bed.
not even in the mood to deal with anything/anybody right now.
__________________________________________________________________
Teacher- Everyone of your names means something! Does anyone know what their name means?
Nicole- Leith means Blonde!

ahahahahahah

spring break :)

Yay :)
I'm in 6th period right now, and we were at the library picking up our new books, and I got an email from southwest with all my ticket info for spring break!!! Which meannsss...
All I have left to do is go shopping and go on a diet! Hahah.
Xoxo
Peace.

you're a dime, plus 99 and its a shame, dont even know what you're worth.

Yayy I finally got the internet on my phone to work!
And I finished 2 essays and another project all in one day. Haha that's what I get for waiting till the last second to do stuff. Anyywaysss...
Its back to escuela tmrw so I'm off to bed.
Hella throwbackkks to end the night.
:)
Peace.

i let you know that you're my good thannng

everyone just left...
and im pissssed cuz i took a bunch of pictures, but for some reason like half of them aren't on my camera anymore?
WTF.
anywho it was a good weekend.
yesterday my cousins and i went out during the day, and then had a bunch of people over to our house for dinner that night.
today we went to church,
out to lunch,
and then some people went to the movies and everyone else went back to my aunties.
i just got home, and everyone else just left to go back to socal.
and now my room is a hot mess and i have two projects due on tuesday that i needa do.
smh. -_-
thankfully we have tmrw off...


TO.DO
-finish my reports for english and bio.
-go on a freaking diet. i have a week before spring break to get my legs cute and be able to squeeze back into my size zero bathing suit.
ahahah.
-put in my order for karmaloop.
-buy a couple new bathing suits
-buy some more flannels.
and one for osa too.
-get some shorts&sundresses for spring break
-get the internet on my phone fixed.
-get a haircut.
-get my grades up
-book my plane tickets to LA for next week.
and lastlyyy...
-forgive & forget. sometimes i judge people way too quickly =/

i think ima hop in the shower, get my room back to normal, and get all my homework shieet done.
then maybe go out after that?
im fckn tireeed tho so maybe not.
a veryy exciting night as you can see.
AHAH.
peace.

let meeee... show you what you've been missin.

wow can i just say..
thank god this week is finally effing OVER.
it was like dragging onnnn and on and on.
haha
today was pretty chill tho...
it was the last day of the 3rd quarter so every class was either a midterm or just watching a movie.
no need to go into details. aha
you can tell everyone is just waiting for spring break tho...
just got home, and were cleaning and geting everything organized cuz we have hella fam coming to stay with us this weekend.
theres gonna be likeee 12 ppl in my house i think?
haha helllla crowded!
after i get my room all organized im gonna go out with friends for a little while,
then go out to dinner with my mom, stepdad, and sister
and THEN we're going to my other aunties house to wait for everyone to get here,
and then finally home.
aha this weekend is gonna be busy but fun.

oh and this stuff is soo good! lol

hope everyone has a good weekend!

cause you're my sunset-set-set-set-set

soo i was talking to jazmin last night and she told me about this one volleyball club in oakland.
i guess instead of tryouts they invite people to these things called "callouts" and everyone makes the team.
but you have to like get referred to it or something, since they cant have hella people showing up.
untill then i think ima just start going to bladium to practice a little more.
annndd i need to get my grades up before i even think about doing anything else.
haha anyyways.
ilove the weather lately!! its hella pretty and you can tell its abouta be summer :)
and im super super superr juiced for this weekend cuz all the LA fam is coming up.
should be funnn.
but anyways i have soo much stuff to do.
sooo more later loves.

penis

writing from 6th period again cuz we're supposed to be reading,
but im being a.d.d. so i cant concentrate.
lol
i NEED to start on this shit for bio.
but im not sure when i'll have time.
i have to build a model of DNA and then write an essay abt cloning.
suuuuuper exciting right?!
haha. ohh and i had tutoring last night.
it wasnt that bad.
im already to start understand things better.
the only thing i didnt like was he gave me some homework type of shit to have done before tonight when i go back. ohhwell tho...

rafael casal is the shit.

this is on point.
could not have said it better.

tell me what they know about my loveeeee.

some people are sooo unoriginal.
and they like to steal things.
its called plagiarism
and its illegal.
oh and also...
its annoying as fck.
yeah bitch you know who you are.

haha anywayyyss;;
this weekend was okay, but not too exciting.
at least not exciting enough to write about other than...
we made some homemade oreos and they were hella BOMB.
hahaha.
and i went to nordstroms today and got some moccasin boot things that i lovee love loveee. and some green tights. i have no idea what ima even wear them with but i liked the color so i got them. lol
oh and i got a new bag since ive been needing one.
and a new ed hardy shirt.
yay me. :) hahah
picccctures tmrw cuz i just painted my nails so i cant reach into my bag & get my camera.
lmao im a mess.
oh andd i really like the dreams new album.
suprisingly.
haha

peace <3

spring cleaning. aha

so first off... i cleaned out my closet and re-arranged my room and i have shitttt to give away!

yay.

gap product (red).
small.
never been worn.

volcom.
small.
never been worn.

i have some other shirts and a pair of VS pink sweats.
OH and i also have a True Religion ski jacket that i bought and only wore once.
if ur interested in anything get at meee and i'll stop being lazy and take pics of the other stuff.
pleasee take them tho :)
my closet is squished! lol

also...look what came today!

haha i after i saw the movie i had to get the book. i started it earlier and its actually good!
lol

anyyywho.
today was pretty chill.
i went to school and then after school i went to eat with imari and heather.
we saw hella people while we were eating too! haha
but then we went and met up with brianna, and went back to heathers for awhile.
we were planning on meeting up with all these people at the park, but i wanted to go home and shower and get ready and stuff.
after i got out i had a headache so i took some medicine and accidentally knocked out for like 2 hours.
so by the time i woke up they had already gone and did everything.
it was cool tho cuz not that many ppl ended up going anyways.
so i just chilled at home for the rest of the night.
and tmrw we're all gonna do something.
and also i need to go shopping to go get some ankle boots.
and some new flannels for me and osa.
lmao.
oh and then im either going to some party thing at briannas, or to a fam party.
we'll seeeee.
im superr busy for the next 3 weekends or so, going back and forth to L.A., or having fam. come here.
im excited, but iono when i'll have time to go to berkley and i wanted to go kindaa soon.
oh well.
maybe over spring break.
kk well i havent had my phone with me so i have people to call back.
haha.
peace.

i want...

all of these. haha i need a job -_-

supreme/vans collab. i want the eras in black.

dimepiece sweatshirt in gray (but im getting the black one!)

$90

LV bag.

kanye's collab with LV. all of them are close to $1000. lol

marc by marc jacobs bracelet.

today was hella lazy.
woke up an hour late so i was in sweaaats again.
i needa sleep more.
aha.
OH and we're watching this in english...
nicole and i actually pay attention for once!

heyy.boy.heyyyy

aahahaha.
peace.