my yesterdays are gone...

and tommorws never promised to no one.

sooo...i saw the ex boyfrann last weekend.
to say the least... it was interesting?
and awkward.
not bad, but just weird and waaay different.
i mean, obviously.
as much as i might have complained or whatever, he was a good kid.
actually no.
he wasnt a good kid, but he was a good boyfriend.
as best as he could be in the situation.
i just cant deal with the "bad boy" shit.
i put up with it for as long as i could.
i tried. i wanted it to work.
but lets just say, he definitely was NOT someone who i would be ok with meeting my parents.
and eventually he was going to have to.
but really i would like have panic attacks thinking about it.
nooo lie.
aha. and then there was the whole sneaking around thing,
that got tiring reallll fast.
and he would always expect me to be coming over. like i had no life aside from him.
and he never went to school so they would just do stupid shit all day.

BUT ...

regardless of all that, i do miss him.
and hope hes doing ok.
which i dont think he is =/
its not my responsibility to keep him in check anymore though, and as much as i wanna just fckn shake him and make him realize everything he could be doing but isnt,
i cant.
and i wont.
i hope he pulls his shit together soon tho.

aside from that....
spring break has been pretty chill and boring so far.
im gonna try to hang out with a few people before i go, since i'll be in so.cal for the rest of the week.
also i feel bad cuz im missing 2 peoples birthdays while im gone -_-
hahhh ive been hella lazy today tho, so ima actually get myself up and ready.
hopefully either going to SF or berkley today, but if not prbly will just end up going running at the lake.
haha oh...
i hella love musiq soulchild now!
i had to get the whole luvanmusiq album yesterday. :)
today and sobeautiful are my favorite songs.

hopeee everyones break is good.
peace.